EMO"18-22 of October i have been sad these past few days..got used to straring blankly at any empty space i can see..i guess i feel the same way inside me...empty..yes..last tuesday...i got to be a bit near him again..until wednesday..and friday...he smiled at me..still it doesnt feel so real..i have been alone a lot of times this week..thinking of all the jokes of people that made me feel hurt..but they were not aware of it..thinking of all the things that are happening around me..and things that would happen..the prom that would happen after my birthday which would make me feel so lonely and heart broken again..oh..i'm so tired...if only someone cared to know..i'm tired of laughing to the point that i notice that all of it is fake..i'm tired of falling in and out of love again..i'm tired of trusting people..i'm tired of being alone...so much that it's as if..the pain could kill me..i'm tired of crying even though the tears couldn't erase in my mind that i'm so hurti'm tired of hoping and hoping until everythimg i dream of would just fall into pieces..
oh yes...I AM SO TIRED....tired of living inside this cold world that i can't see the sun shining aymore..all i want is to be happy..all i want is to wake up and to feel that i am loved...but i guess this is fate...i guess i need to wait for the sun to shine for me..so that someday....someday...every thing would be real and i could smile again...someday...someday..
oh yes...I AM SO TIRED....tired of living inside this cold world that i can't see the sun shining aymore..all i want is to be happy..all i want is to wake up and to feel that i am loved...but i guess this is fate...i guess i need to wait for the sun to shine for me..so that someday....someday...every thing would be real and i could smile again...someday...someday..
(mixedmasks,2:03 AM)