.mixed.
it's been a long time since i last posted here..
but now..these emotions are too much..they need to be released..
ha...i don't even have the right words for this feeling..
i've been crazy
i've been quiet
i've been lost
i've been crying..
and now..
i'm up here writing about how confused i am..
i've been to thinking about liking someone else..
but i guess, it was already a sign that we were ages apart..
i've been missing my family in highschool a lot..
and last monday,i just got hugs from them,i just wanted to cry..
yet this day, i just got the news of the month..
that made me really think how ironic life can be..
after week of praying na"lord,okei lang khet ano pa yan..
bsta kung san sya masaya..:"
now i got my answered prayer..
he passed(he even tried to fool me that he didn't)
yah,i was happy that he was happy..
now he's able to follow his dreams..
but honestly, a part of me..
was sad, and sorry for myself..
because, i would surely miss him...
but i know that i should be strong..
and have that strength to let go of that hope..
that he would just always be there..
how i wished,this would be just a dream for me..
and a reality for him..
but the ironically,we are just living in one world, in which...
i can't feel him..
so much for all my mismatched words and dreams...
(mixedmasks,9:19 PM)