FORCED.
pasaway talaga akong bata
pumapasok kse ako kahit may sakit
ayan,nagkatrangkaso ako for 4 days..
heck...my mind and body was tortured..
i had to lie down all day..
wake up...be forced to eat and take my medications..
then sleep again..perspiring..
it was like a routine...except for the occasional vomiting..
i was so sick...i wanted to end it all..
what made it worse was that my mind was filled with thoughts..
painful..heart crushing ones..
of missing..of losing...regrets...of letting go..falling in and out..
failing...dying(may even be literally,haha!)
thanks to my doc(my mom)and my nurses(my family)
and to those cute angels who made every minute bearable(my inched and hs friends)
i made it.
yet..
i still can't forget how many times i forced myslef to eat and sleep..
the same moments, i forced myself to forget you.
pasaway talaga akong bata
pumapasok kse ako kahit may sakit
ayan,nagkatrangkaso ako for 4 days..
heck...my mind and body was tortured..
i had to lie down all day..
wake up...be forced to eat and take my medications..
then sleep again..perspiring..
it was like a routine...except for the occasional vomiting..
i was so sick...i wanted to end it all..
what made it worse was that my mind was filled with thoughts..
painful..heart crushing ones..
of missing..of losing...regrets...of letting go..falling in and out..
failing...dying(may even be literally,haha!)
thanks to my doc(my mom)and my nurses(my family)
and to those cute angels who made every minute bearable(my inched and hs friends)
i made it.
yet..
i still can't forget how many times i forced myslef to eat and sleep..
the same moments, i forced myself to forget you.
(mixedmasks,1:24 AM)