TACKLING THE PAST
ito ang dahilan ng pagtulog ko ng 5 am kanina.
ang pagsakit ng ulo ko pagising.
ang sama ng pakiramdam ko.
ang init ng aking ulo.
pasensya na kung dito ko nilalabas.
di ko kasi masarili eh.
commentan nyo na lang ng reaksyon nyo.
this happened aroung 2 am.
not the exact words syempre.di ko naman memorize per word ang usapan na to.
AKO:o,buhay pala ung sun sim mo.akala ko la ka nang fone.nag-greet ka kasi sa smart sim ko eh.hapi new yir din!*smiley face*
HIM:who are you?
A:ahmm.anne,apple anne rose?globe sim ko to.
H:ohh..ur free to visit me anytime..sa baguio nga lang..i have to ask you something..and your answer might help me or harm me.WAAAH.pressure.but i need to ask it.
A:at ano naman ung mga tanong na un?
H:did you produce any genuine feeling to genuinely love me?
A:*tulala muna*actually,i can't answer that with a yes or a no.because i was hurt back then.ang i was unsure.
H:why were you hurt that time?u tried to push me away dahil nga ayaw mong dumatig ung point na marealize mong di ka sure?sa ano?at bat naman lalo masasaktan pagtagal?when all i wanted was to be near and dear to u.
A:why was i hurt?dahil nga sawi ako nun.at di ako sure sa feelings ko sayo.bket mo pa ba tinatanong ang mga to?may nararamdaman ka pa ba pra saken?
H:ok lang saking umamin ka na di ka sure but pushing me away with such logic is highly questionable.at hindi ba obvious that i am reminded of you all the time?
A:what logic?ganun?e di ba may gusto ko nang iba?e bakit ganyan ka pa rin?
H:ung logic na di ka sure kaya u tried to push me away and i'll be the one to decide who im crazy about or bitter.haha.
A:y is it highly questionable?at bakit ba.sino ba ako sayo?
H:because it seems u'd much rather avoid telling me the truth and sacrifice whatever is left w/ my happi happi joy joy that letting me prove that i do want you bad.that i do miss you all the time and that i see ur name everywhere.creepy huh?
A:i am telling the truth.you told me to be honest,i am being honest.tigil na kc to.may gf ka na di ba?ano siya,rubber stopper?
H:do you really have to know?she already broke up with me.and all these are...in vain.because i would never compare w/d any of the guys you chose.kahit na hopeless ako sayo fdor the longest time.
A:bket ka na iniwan?at why in vain?un na nga eh.all i wanted was for you to have sum1 who'll love u dearly.heck, i dont even know if i am the one.and that's why di ako nagcommit noon dhel i wasn't even sure if what i felt was love.
H:can we stop all these bravado and tell me that i am worthless. she left me because i haven't forgotten you ever.was it pity if not love?and only one can be sure then surely one is above the stars.
A:i am not ever going to tell you that you are worthless dhel hindi naman talaga.ako ang worthless dhel di ko maapreciate ang worth mo.but what can i do?i was unsure of my feelings.ao bang gusto mong mangyari?
H:ano bang pwdeng mangyari?
A:sagutin mo ung tanong ko.
H:i dont know.all i want now is to see you or talk to u.
A:oo sige..pag magaling ka na.(which is a year after pa dhel napilay sya.great.this would be dragging.)
ayun..case closed..mag-uusap na lang kme.i dont know when.basata.sana maayos to.
ito ang dahilan ng pagtulog ko ng 5 am kanina.
ang pagsakit ng ulo ko pagising.
ang sama ng pakiramdam ko.
ang init ng aking ulo.
pasensya na kung dito ko nilalabas.
di ko kasi masarili eh.
commentan nyo na lang ng reaksyon nyo.
this happened aroung 2 am.
not the exact words syempre.di ko naman memorize per word ang usapan na to.
AKO:o,buhay pala ung sun sim mo.akala ko la ka nang fone.nag-greet ka kasi sa smart sim ko eh.hapi new yir din!*smiley face*
HIM:who are you?
A:ahmm.anne,apple anne rose?globe sim ko to.
H:ohh..ur free to visit me anytime..sa baguio nga lang..i have to ask you something..and your answer might help me or harm me.WAAAH.pressure.but i need to ask it.
A:at ano naman ung mga tanong na un?
H:did you produce any genuine feeling to genuinely love me?
A:*tulala muna*actually,i can't answer that with a yes or a no.because i was hurt back then.ang i was unsure.
H:why were you hurt that time?u tried to push me away dahil nga ayaw mong dumatig ung point na marealize mong di ka sure?sa ano?at bat naman lalo masasaktan pagtagal?when all i wanted was to be near and dear to u.
A:why was i hurt?dahil nga sawi ako nun.at di ako sure sa feelings ko sayo.bket mo pa ba tinatanong ang mga to?may nararamdaman ka pa ba pra saken?
H:ok lang saking umamin ka na di ka sure but pushing me away with such logic is highly questionable.at hindi ba obvious that i am reminded of you all the time?
A:what logic?ganun?e di ba may gusto ko nang iba?e bakit ganyan ka pa rin?
H:ung logic na di ka sure kaya u tried to push me away and i'll be the one to decide who im crazy about or bitter.haha.
A:y is it highly questionable?at bakit ba.sino ba ako sayo?
H:because it seems u'd much rather avoid telling me the truth and sacrifice whatever is left w/ my happi happi joy joy that letting me prove that i do want you bad.that i do miss you all the time and that i see ur name everywhere.creepy huh?
A:i am telling the truth.you told me to be honest,i am being honest.tigil na kc to.may gf ka na di ba?ano siya,rubber stopper?
H:do you really have to know?she already broke up with me.and all these are...in vain.because i would never compare w/d any of the guys you chose.kahit na hopeless ako sayo fdor the longest time.
A:bket ka na iniwan?at why in vain?un na nga eh.all i wanted was for you to have sum1 who'll love u dearly.heck, i dont even know if i am the one.and that's why di ako nagcommit noon dhel i wasn't even sure if what i felt was love.
H:can we stop all these bravado and tell me that i am worthless. she left me because i haven't forgotten you ever.was it pity if not love?and only one can be sure then surely one is above the stars.
A:i am not ever going to tell you that you are worthless dhel hindi naman talaga.ako ang worthless dhel di ko maapreciate ang worth mo.but what can i do?i was unsure of my feelings.ao bang gusto mong mangyari?
H:ano bang pwdeng mangyari?
A:sagutin mo ung tanong ko.
H:i dont know.all i want now is to see you or talk to u.
A:oo sige..pag magaling ka na.(which is a year after pa dhel napilay sya.great.this would be dragging.)
ayun..case closed..mag-uusap na lang kme.i dont know when.basata.sana maayos to.
(mixedmasks,7:25 PM)